I Miss Her

Reading her messages,
Repeating each line,
Imagining her saying it to me.
Wonder why I am so incompetent,
In reaching out to a gal's heart,
To her heart which seems to elude my grasp.

I do not understand her,
Trying my best to give to her,
Been alone too long,
Forgot how it was to consider and love.
Relearning lots of stuff,
Hopefully I will be in time.

I miss her a lot,
Hoping that no one before
And after will catch her eye.
But she probably doesn't know it,
Had the chance, but missed it.
Had the chance, but it slipped through.

I don't want to lose her,
Set my heart to fight for her,
To convince her that I love her,
Yet fearing that it will push her away,
Wondering whats the way,
If it would be too sudden if I just ask her out.

Reading her messages,
Praying really hard,
Thinking with my heart beyond rationale,
Trying to reach through,
Wanting to hold her,
Missing her so much.

@->--- Wei Min

Hold

I've been thinking,
Where to draw the line,
If things can be a bit more.
I don't understand,
What is right and when is wrong,
To not make things worse.

Oh, I know that I need to hold,
Hold myself from racing to you,
Not that you aren't good,
But because I don't want
To lose another friend.

I don't know much,
Especially when to toe the line,
I'm learning from those around.
I see them being caring,
And I want to care too,
But I don't know if you'd see it that way.

Oh, I know that I need to hold,
Hold myself from racing to you,
Not that you aren't good,
But because I don't want
To lose another friend.

I so hope for someone to be by me,
And I'd so like to just
Love and care for someone.
But I don't know what you are thinking,
I've trashed many friendships before,
Because of foolishness and gall,
So, I don't want to lose you,
At least I get to talk to you still,
Even if things are not meant to be.

Oh, I know that I need to hold,
Hold myself from racing to you,
Not that you aren't good,
But because I don't want
To lose another friend.

@->--- Wei Min

Teddy Bear

Maybe I'll just buy a teddy bear,

A white or brown one,

But surely a cuddly one,

To warm my heart,

When I'm feeling cold.

I'm just a normal guy,

Just need a hug,

Just need to cry.

I don't understand this world, never really did.

Seldom a good soul, barely two.

The coldness and injustice,

The evil and lies,

Few ask for my side, my story,

Always the trodden upon.

I am always alone, bullied, and trampled.

The little hedgehog no one loves.

Do I really look strong,

Don't they see further within,

That the one who smiles the most,

Maybe the one who cries to sleep at night.

Maybe I'll just buy a teddy bear,

A white or brown one,

But surely a cuddly one,

To stand by me,

When I'm feeling abandoned.

I'm just a normal guy,

Just need a hug,

Just need to cry.

I will not look at them, nor bother with them.

They who judge so quickly,

They who spread lies to cover their wickedness,

Avenge me oh Lord, fight for me,

Send me good souls,

For else I would have no hope.

Maybe I'll just buy a teddy bear,

A white or brown one,

But surely a cuddly one,

To pretend-hug me back,

When I'm feeling lonely.

I'm just a normal guy,

Just need a hug,

Just need to cry.

All those hypocrites, 

Preaching love and assuring support,

Yet never once listening to me,

Always turning against me,

Blind self-righteous people without empathy

Throwing stones when they are scarlet,

When the mirror reflects a crooked person.

Maybe I'll just buy a teddy bear,

A white or brown one,

But surely a cuddly one,

To soak up my tears,

When I'm feeling cold.

I'm just a normal guy,

Just need a hug,

Just need to cry.

Hoping for a Special Christmas

Going home from work,
Thinking about today,
Wondering about tomorrow,
It is just a typical day.

Looking at the people around,
The couples and families,
Remembering it's almost Christmas,
Wondering if I will ever be like them.

It's two years, yea,
Two years being alone.
It's cold out here, but I'm strong.
I've got Him to carry me on.
Still, I pray and wish,
Don't need snow,
Don't need a Christmas tree,
Just a beautiful moment,
Yea, beneath the mistletoe, that one little kiss.

Chat group's beeping,
Talking about gift exchanges,
And parties and gatherings,
Oh well, guess it ain't that bad.

Still, I scroll down,
Looking at the missed and what-ifs,
Wondering if maybe,
Maybe it'll be one of them.

It's two years, yea,
Two years being alone.
It's cold out here, but I'm strong.
I've got Him to carry me on.
Still, I pray and wish,
Don't need snow,
Don't need a Christmas tree,
Just a beautiful moment,
Yea, beneath the mistletoe, that one little kiss.

I don't need no-one beside me,
I can carry on and get by myself.
Things are going well, but
Wouldn't it be awesomely great
To have someone to share the present with?
Wouldn't it be heartwarming
To have someone to hug, give and love?

It's two years, yea,
Two years being alone.
It's cold out here, but I'm strong.
I've got Him to carry me on.
Still, I pray and wish,
Don't need snow,
Don't need a Christmas tree,
Just a beautiful moment,
Yea, beneath the mistletoe, that one little kiss.

Listening to songs,

Of love, Christmas and hope.

Hoping that maybe,
Just maybe there'll be a miracle,
That it'll be a special Christmas this year.