Patch Me a Hug

Please patch me a hug, 

A simple one will do.

Though with use it be worn,

Though with time it be torn,

Though it lasts but for a while,

But it still brings warmth from the falling snow

Please patch me a hug,

A short one will do,

Though with use it will fade,

Though with time it be gone,

Though it lasts but for a while,

But it still brings light to the hour before dawn.

Where is the hug when you need one,

That tells you everything will be alright,

Pouring forth love and warmth and assurance,

Even in the midst of a thunderstorm?

Where is the hug when you need one,

That will open the taps to flow,

Releasing all the pent up sorrows and loneliness

Even if the night were still here?

Where is the hug when you need one,

That points you forward and upward,

Telling you of a better day ahead,

Even though dawn is but breaking?

So, please patch me a hug,

Just but one will do - I don't need too many

Though with use it will dull,

Though with time it will dissipate,

And though it cannot last forever,

But it is a hopeful respite from the loneliness that reside within.

The Dim Candle

A small glow, a dim candle lit.
Its weak flame flickering
Above melted wax
And quenched flax.

Why does this flame,
Phantom and frail, yet
Strong and determined,
Continue to burn?

Why does the the flame,
Persists without the candle,
Seeing the impossibility
Of things that cannot be?

Why will it not perish,
As so many have before it,
To fade and be forgotten
Into darkness and oblivion?

The wind blows cruelly,
The real banishing the imaginary,
But look, the flame remains un-wavered.
Ah. a small glow, a dim candle lit.

Feeling Upbeat

Im feeling happy.
Never been really happy
By myself in a long long while.
It feels good to be happy,
Knowing that things are getting better.

And even if the skies were to gray,
And should the rain come,
I know it will just be a while,
Because it is the seventh day.
No more thunderstorms,
No more endless dark nights,
Its the end of the tunnel.
I see the clear sapphire sky
I feel the sun's warm embrace
Of the light and coming goodness.

I'm feelin' joyful,
And it would be everyday
Though i still sit alone.
It feels awesome today
Seeing that things have become better

And even if the skies were to gray,
And should the rain come,
I know it will just be a while,
Because it is the seventh day.
No more thunderstorms,
No more endless dark nights,
Its the end of the tunnel.
I see the clear sapphire sky
I feel the sun's warm embrace
Of the light and coming goodness.

I'm feelin' hopeful,
Of the blessings to come
And to see her walk with me.
It feels great to believe,
Believing that the best has yet to be.

I am Grateful.

I am grateful for each day that I breathe,
To smell the fresh air in the morn,
To smell the flowers in bloom,
To smell my favourite foods,
To smell me in all my stinkies.

I am grateful for each that I wake,
It is a chance to be with my pals,
It is a chance to enjoy and achieve,
It is a chance to love and live,
It is a chance to be me.

I am grateful for each meal that I eat,
Of the nourishment that it gives,
Of the deliverance from hunger,
Of the sign that I am not poor,
Of the ability to fill content n full.

I am grateful for each blessing that I have,
In all the love that it signifies,
From God and from man.
In all that which i have received,
And much more that are on their way.

I am grateful in heart, soul and spirit.
That the seventh day has come,
That rest and peace has arrived,
That the heat of forge is over, though molding is not,
That prosperity and anointing is upon me,
That I am carried in everlasting arms.

The Little Hedgehog

Another day is over,

And it's one more lonely night.

My heart yearns to pour,

To empty out before someone,

But there is noone here.

Another song ends,

And it's one more lonely breath.

My voice wants to speak,

To loose the day before someone,

But there is noone there. 

Is it possible, that

There is someone out there for me?

Someone who will hug me

And love me for who I am?

I so want to be loved, oh all that badly.

I'll give everything to be hugged,

I'll give all of myself to be loved,

I'll give the whole world,

For that one special person,

Brave enough to embrace this lonely hedgehog.

Another year is gone,

And it's one more lonely winter.

Time has flown so fast,

But my heart still seeks

The one who will be by me.

Is it possible, that

There is someone out there for me?

Someone who will hug me

And love me for who I am?

I so want to be loved, oh all that badly.

I'll give everything to be hugged,

I'll give all of myself to be loved,

I'll give the whole world,

For that one special person,

Brave enough to embrace this lonely hedgehog.

Everyone's smiling and strong,

Everyone's all doing well,

Everyone has someone beside them,

But my life is still empty,

A hollow shell that rings like a bell.

Please don't run away, 

It's not my fault that I have spines.

Please come back,

I am fuzzy and warm beneath.

Please know that I can love, and want to be loved.

I so want to be loved, oh all that badly.

I'll give everything to be hugged,

I'll give all of myself to be loved,

I'll give the whole world,

For that one special person,

Brave enough to embrace this lonely hedgehog.

If I Could Go Back

It's been two weeks, perhaps more,
Since we exchanged smiles,
Since we spoke happily, unconstrained.
How I wish, things never became today,
The goodbye, even as friends.

I remember the first time we met,
The foreign clasp of hands,
The graceful flit across the floor,
Was the start of a beautiful friendship,
With the hope of a little more.

Yet things have become as of today,
Wrong words, bad decisions,
Mistaken actions, broken hearts
If only I could go back in time,
I would surely right these things.

I wonder how you are,
I wish you well, if only you know.
Of happiness and a beautiful future,
Hoping that life never wears you down,
And your feet keep moving across the floor,
Even if they do not follow mine.

What did we do to come to this,
I do not truly know,
But I do miss the laughs and twirls,
The smiles when we danced around,
If only I could go back in time.

I wonder how you are,
I wish you well, if only you know.
Of happiness and a beautiful future,
Hoping that life never wears you down,
And your feet keep moving across the floor,
Even if they do not follow mine.

Oh, oh yea, oh
When hands clasped and feet danced,
Hearts were lifted, and they never should have,
Oh, for friends we are not even today;
Our closeness has faded into the gloom of goodbye

I wonder how you are,
I wish you well, if only you know.
Of happiness and a beautiful future,
Hoping that life never wears you down,
And your feet keep moving across the floor,
Even if they do not follow mine.


@->---
Sarah

You Still Love Him

I still bear a little hope,
That maybe you didn't mean what you said,
But I know it's clear,
That we will never be.
For all the things you said about him,
You still love him deep inside.

I don't know if its right,
That I still pine for you within,
Hoping for a dream
To come through miraculously.
For all the things I thought you did for me,
You still love him deep inside.

So, I'll just close the window,
And blow out the lonely flame
Dancing in the cold night wind.
So, I'll just pluck the bud,
That began to grow on the lonely stem,
Feeling the thorns and the pain
Of never seeing it blossom into a rose.
And I'll just have to pick myself up,
Carry on knowing that you'd never belong to me.

I smile and tell you it's alright,
But you do not see beneath the strength,
That the frozen crystal shattered
Once again into pieces.
For all the things you said to me,
You still love him deep inside.

So, I'll just close the window,
And blow out the lonely flame
Dancing in the cold night wind.
So, I'll just pluck the bud,
That began to grow on the lonely stem,
Feeling the thorns and the pain
Of never seeing it blossom into a rose.
And I'll just have to pick myself up,
Carry on knowing that you'd never belong to me.

Oh why, oh why,
That when my love grows stronger for you,
Only then you turn away.
Oh why, oh why,
That when I decided to open up to you,
Only then you close the door.
Don't you see the clouds gathering beneath the calm,
The rains that have begun to pour,
The lonely heart that cries and screams within?

So, I'll just close the window,
And blow out the lonely flame
Dancing in the cold night wind.
So, I'll just pluck the bud,
That began to grow on the lonely stem,
Feeling the thorns and the pain
Of never seeing it blossom into a rose.
And I'll just have to pick myself up,
Carry on knowing that you'd never belong to me.

Alone Once More

I am alone once more.
That hope, lost, again.
It's back to the quiet night.
It's back to being alone.

I am alone once more.
It isn't meant to be.
Perhaps it was my fault,
Perhaps it was me thinking too much.

Why is it that these come and go,
That it always seem to be,
But yet always come to naught?
How long do I have to wait,
For her to come into my life?
Truly, truly, truly, when is it my turn?

I am alone once more.
I want to love and be loved.
The comfort of having someone,
The warmth of that embrace.

Why is it that these come and go,
That it always seem to be,
But yet always come to naught?
How long do I have to wait,
For her to come into my life?
Truly, truly, truly, when is it my turn?

Oh oh oh, where are you,
Am I meant to endure each night
Lonely and cold, without comfort
In words, hugs, and hopefully kisses?

Oh oh oh, when will you arrive,
To thaw the brutal winter within
Making the strongest weak,
And the weakest strong?

And, why is it that these come and go,
That it always seem to be,
But yet always come to naught?
How long do I have to wait,
For you to come into my life?
Truly, truly, truly, when is it my turn?

I am alone once more.
And every night, I pray and sing,
Waiting quietly, hoping patiently for you.

Should not Have.

It's raining,
And I'm still thinking of you.
But I have grown stronger,
And I have learnt much; but still,

There are things that you should not have done,
Things that you should not have said,
Things that I should not have shared,
Feelings that I should not have felt.
Because while I stand,
I can't help feeling sad and confused,
Of the things that should not have been.

It's raining,
And the bus rumbles on,
I look outside at the gray skies,
And wonder if the sky is weeping with me, cause,

There are things that you should not have done,
Things that you should not have said,
Things that I should not have shared,
Feelings that I should not have felt.
Because while I stand,
I can't help feeling sad and confused,
Of the things that should not have been.

It's raining, oh oh oh,
Deep within inside,
On the sea of emotions within,
And on the warrior standing but wounded, cause,

There are things that you should not have done,
Things that you should not have said,
Things that I should not have shared,
Feelings that I should not have felt.
Because while I stand,
I can't help feeling sad and confused,
Of the things that should not have been.

I Just Wanna Talk to Her

I just wanna talk to her,

To ask her how's her day,

To find out if she's alright;

Cause she's been on my mind the whole day.

I just wanna talk to her,

Though I still fear I'm imagining things,

Even when I fear I'm pushing her away,

Cause she's just getting deeper into my soul.

The love that grows within,

Giving strength to the patience to wait,

Lending hope to my fears of unrequited love,

Renewing the fire that life is worth living,

Even if it is just for her...

I just wanna talk to her,

To tell her I care, 

To say that I would be here if she needs,

Cause she's rooting into my heart.

The love that grows within,

Giving strength to the patience to wait,

Lending hope to my fears of unrequited love,

Renewing the fire that life is worth living,

Even if it is just for her...

Oh, I do want to be with her - what's come over me?

Oh, I so miss seeing her - why am I so besotted?

Oh, I love her smile and joy - how have I been tripped

That I have fallen so flat and so willingly?

Oh, the feeling is so strong:

Reason and caution have given way

To the desire to yield to the love of my heart;

And so I wait hopefully for that beautiful moment,

To hold her hands, and tell her that I love her,

That I would like to commit myself to her, only her...

So I just wanna talk to her,

In person with all my sincerity,

To tell her that my heart's irrecoverably sunk. 

For her, for her, for her...

And my love for her grows within:

Giving strength to the patience to wait,

Lending hope to my fears of unrequited love,

Renewing the fire that life is worth living,

Even if it is just for her - oh how special she is...

From the depths of my heart, I long for you...

@->--- Jan

This I Know: I Love You

I am so smitten by you,
Wanting to see you every day,
Every minute every second of my life.
What magic do you hold over me I don't know,
But this I know,

I love you; I want to hold you and be with you,
I cant get you out of my mind,
I remember your laugh and smile, your glittering eyes,
Because you are beautiful,
From the outside to the inside,
With all the intensity that no guy will turn away.

I am thinking of you now,
Hoping that somehow you'd be thinking of me too,
I asked you out, but the phone's silent,
And I am worried that it is just me making things up,
Oh, but still I know,

I love you; I want to hold you and be with you,
I cant get you out of my mind,
I remember your laugh and smile, your glittering eyes,
Because you are beautiful,
From the outside to the inside,
With all the intensity that no guy can turn away.

I want to reach out to you,
Longing for you, but fearing that you'd run away
When I come close, that you see my imperfections,
And my heart is drawn to you, but I don't know what to do.
Still, this I do know,

I love you; I want to hold you and be with you,
I cant get you out of my mind,
I remember your laugh and smile, your glittering eyes,
Because you are beautiful,
From the outside to the inside,
With all the intensity that no guy will turn away.

I'd risk everything for you
I'd give you all the little that I have
If you'd just receive me again;
I know I was late, that your fire's gone cold,
I know I was slow, but you gotta understand why,
But please, I just want you to know now,
That I am thinking of you at every moment,
That I am so in love with you,
That this I know,

I love you; I want to hold you and be with you,
I cant get you out of my mind,
I remember your laugh and smile, your glittering eyes,
Because you are beautiful,
From the outside to the inside,
With all the intensity that no guy will turn away.

@->--- Jan

You'd Think

You'd think she'd be the one,
You'd think that I'd be bold and move,
But I am not too sure,
Oh why is that so?

You'd think she would accept me,
You'd think I would accept her too,
But I worry and hold back,
Oh if only I knew what to do.

I know not how to reach her,
Fearing that she would run,
Afraid of the loss and hurt that will come.
Yet I so badly want her,
To hold her, comfort her and love her,
But I do not know what to do.

You'd think that we would be together,
You'd think that she would free her hands to hold mine,
But I am still waiting...

I cannot stand it any longer.

I am the lonely clueless one,
Never knowing how to bridge the gap,
Across that yawning canyon between.
So close and yet so far;
So fearful that she would turn and leave,
I so wish I knew what to do.

I'd think that I'd love to hold her,
To open my heart to her.
I'd think that I miss her,
To have her only - and her, only me...

There is Hope!

Through the clouds into the sapphire sky, my spirit flies;
The roaring of wind in my ears, and
The fluttering of my heart
Shouts, see the morn has come; there is Hope!

Above mountains and valleys, fields and meadows, my spirit climbs;
The brightening sun, and
The distancing ground with its familiarity
Screams, see the glory of a new dawn; there is Rest!

Beyond the cotton clouds, into the heavens' glory, my spirit soars;
The magnificence of heaven's road, and
The majesty of the Lord with His love
Sings, see the light of the seventh day; there is Peace!

Behold! Before the gates stands the Lord,
And who is the figure beside;
Is she the one I've been waiting for?